never a lip is curved with pain
that can’t be kissed into smile again
02 → Something you love about yourself.
03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
07 → Someone who has…
Someday I’ll answer these !
Flowers from the Lover
Finally my day off. Pretty worn out from work. So what to do today?
Clean the house!
The roommates are gone. Both of them. The apartment is now ours. It feels a bit lonely but at the same time solitude is great. I can do what I want with the place now and not have to worry about others opinions.
Going to start off with kitchen and then bathroom. I wish I could be new bathroom mats, but money is needed in more important areas then fixing up the house right now. Wish I had a nice vacuum too !
So… we’re staying here for another 6 months to figure out what our next move is. Like literally if we’re going to move or stay. I really do like this place, but we don’t need a spare bedroom and I don’t believe Randel wants a roommate. But man… two car garage and walking distance to the beach ! It would be a nice change though to find a smaller place more fit for two people. But whichever way it goes, I hope all goes well.
If only there was such as thing as peoplefax. Like carfax, it gives you a background check on the people so you can pick a responsible roommate :D
On another note, I had a very bad dream last night. I think I started crying and now I’m worried. I had a dream it was my grandma’s time to go. But she wasn’t weak or anything, just that they wanted to take her up to heaven already. The nurses were going to put her down with some injection. I guess that’s the way old people were dying in my dream. But my grandma didn’t want to go yet and she was sitting there with her eyes begging the nurse not to do it. She kept asking if she could stay until Saturday. The nurses weren’t nice at all. I sat next to her bed and watched her take her last breath. Then they put her in a wooden box and stuffed in her a big cargo ship with the rest of the other old people. Worst part of my dream was the the ship crashed into something and all the bodies spilled out of their coffins and into the sea. Because it was a big cargo ship… it had a big propellers and all the bodies including my grandma got chopped up to pieces. I was so frantic. I woke up crying. Now I’m afraid that it is my grandma’s time to go. But I don’t want her to :(
what a horrible dream. I shall visit my grandma today and bring her some flowers.